over. But I do, most assuredly, mind having the apartment turned upside down every single night. And populated with individuals whom I had never seen before and I don't mind telling you I hope never to see again. Since one half of the apartment is officially yours, I really have, or had, no right to complain. But when these -yes-"degenerate" soirees persisted in continuing well past midnight, every night, then I would, as I did, complain. Did you really expect me to put up, for very long, with:

Complete indifference towards me;

Long silences, loss of communication between us;

Secrets;

And being shut out of your life-other than when alone and you decided to be nice to the poor guy,

And realizing (you need not deny it) that you had stopped being true to me months ago...

Although I am very sorry that your father is ill, I am glad that something happened to take you away from here. Being left alone for a complete week gave me the opportunity to stop and reason things out. And much to my surprise, I discovered that with you not here, it was exactly like it was when you were here. Either way, I was alone.

I put in for my vacation and am leaving for two weeks as of tonight. I have made arrangements with Kenny and Phil to remove my furniture and place it in storage for me. They plan to take care of it this weekend. I am not ever coming back to the apartment.

I have paid my share of the rent for this month and next. I feel certain that you should be able to find a roommate by the end of next month.

You wanted this particular apartment. You slaved over the interior decor. So I will leave you with it and forget completely how much I put into it. Please do not attempt to find out where I am. The only people who know won't tell you, so don't bother yourself.

I would prefer never seeing you again. For you see, Bobbie, I am still very much in love with you (you can gloat over that for quite a while, I am afraid). But I cannot continue to live as I have been. I am in serious danger of losing my dignity and self-control. I am, also, beginning to lose my selfrespect. And I do not particularly respect myself for sneaking away, leaving just a hote, rather than facing you. I cannot do that, though, for I fear I might break down and stay. So in order to remain true to myself and be the man I long thought I was, I shall go away from you.

I wish you luck and happiness. And please give my condolences to your next. He will need them.

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